One Year After the Overdose
- akennedyruns11
- Apr 2, 2018
- 2 min read
Yesterday was the one year anniversary of Sam's heroin overdose. It's been one hell of a ride. So many low points, not nearly as many high points. You have to guard against letting yourself get too excited about anything when you love a heroin addict. Peaks are emotional suicide.
Sam had been trying to find sober housing for seven weeks following his last relapse. Two times he had housing lined up and both times it fell through, both at the last minute. There are many many sober houses out there but the majority do not take people on Suboxone unless there is a taper plan. Sam is not on a taper plan. He is part of the next generation of heroin addicts. The official term is "medically assisted recovery". Purists say people on meds such as Suboxone aren't truly sober. While I respect this view, I would bet my life that those people have never been in my shoes. My son is seven weeks and three days sober. I am so proud of him.
I had been leaving housing arrangements up to Sam. That has literally been his only task in the past 7 weeks. After his second plan fell through on Thursday night he told me he felt broken and stuck. I realized then that people like Sam are almost "Factionless". There aren't a whole lot of places for them to land. Fortunately, I work with the most supportive group and I was able to take most of Friday off to get a housing plan in place via the "rabid insane mother route". It worked and by the grace of God, Sam is moving into a sober home tonight.
When I first posted about Sam's heroin addiction and overdose one year ago today, I had no idea what the future held. Today, I can say without a shadow of a doubt that this has been the worst year of my life and also the best year of my life. I am grateful for the ability to stay in the light in my darkest days but I realize that it is only because of my love for Sam and the crazy amount of support and love I have received from my family and friends through this year. Thank you so very much.
Today, Sam begins the next chapter of his life. I am not on a high. I am on a hope.
Where there is life, there is hope. Love you. #nomoreshame
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