Chasing the Dragon
- akennedyruns11
- Feb 2, 2019
- 2 min read
Thank you to all that have continued to support us. We will know Sam’s fate in a couple of weeks. So many people are asking about him I have decided to update here so my whole world doesn’t go back to talking about Sam again.
Jail is a space where time stops. It’s like being in the eye of the storm, not much happening. My gut feeling is that Sam is sober there. Some people see that as a given but recently, a deputy from El Paso County Jail was sentenced to 6 years for smuggling meth in to inmates. Fortunately, he was busted shortly before Sam got there. It’s no wonder jail messes people up worse sometimes with sick bastards like that in charge.
I don’t have much else to say. To have a son in jail is very shameful to me. The opioid epidemic is a national travesty. For my own flesh and blood to feel so entitled as to behave in ways he has to be locked up appalls me. It doesn’t matter why he is there, just that he is.
As angry as Sam is at me, turns out I am pretty mad myself. At Sam and at others as well. I finally saw his co-defendant in court a couple of weeks ago. Acting in my most mature and refined self, I managed to mouth to him “ASSHOLE” (when the deputy wasn’t looking so I wouldn’t get thrown out). Sometimes I think it’s no wonder my kid is like he is. What the hell happens to me when I behave like that?
This picture is the last time I ever saw my son a free man. I remember snapping pictures as he walked away knowing it may be the last time I saw him alive.
Grateful he still has a fighting chance at redemption and life. Where there is life, there IS hope. #nomoreshame
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